Tis the season of holiday cheer, sitting around singing holiday carols and wishing for something bright and shiny across the beam. Another year is practically over and I’m wondering what have I accomplished and what have I held back from doing. Is it singing like a jazz starlet or letting my hair get caught in the wind while I surpass a wave. I have no idea, yet I’m running free still lost in my own confusion trying to put the pieces together. Is it time to do a real assessment on life and figure out what my next plan is and where it will take me. Let go of friends who only want friendship when it is convenient for them? Yet I decompress and keep moving like it’s my last. Growing pains didn’t end when puberty was over with, it’s still a process even that is scary. 10 years ago I wasn’t even thinking about the reality of what “10 years from now” would be like. I was still in my 20’s and for the most part I thought I was pretty invincible. Now 10 years from now is another reality I have to face. If the good Lord sees it fit and allow me to walk on His land, then 10 years from now will be here before I know it. To be honest I’m a little freaked out about seeing 45. Where can my life be, will there be lasting love? Children who have my laughter and faint freckles? Only time will tell. But for now I can’t sit and ponder the reality of the later and just be grateful for what I have in the present and pray for better in the future. So with that I take a humbleness and let it be the ruler of my attitude.
Tis the season of holiday cheer, gleaming smiles, and the smells of red velvet cake.
There is no feat too small or big to conquer.
I don’t think we can never have it all figured out. It does not matter where you were raised, went to school, your social status you will always be on a quest to be the best that you can possibly be. But can it be exhausting sometimes? Still there are things that always have to be done. Buy groceries, pay the bills, drop the dog off at the vet, catch up on this new book a friend told you about, join this outreach group the list just keeps on going. There will be always something. Everyday there is a lesson to be learned. Someone could have given you some really sound advice to put things in a completely different perspective. Or you may have been reminded how good you have it in life, cause someone you just meet showed you the troubles of their own world by just taking one look in their eyes. Never block a blessing and never take a blessing for granted. Even something as simple as being offered a seat on a crowded bus could be a blessing to others. Today on my lunch break I left for work and on my way back I was got stuck at a stop light. For some reason during all of that lunch hour rush, I found something tranquil just by being at that stop light for one minute. Maybe the reason was I was under a shaded tree and I caught a nice swift breeze. Whatever the reason may have been I took delight in those last few seconds and gave thanks to the Creator. Maybe I’m being silly, maybe my lunch was to light I don’t know. It’s important to be appreciative of still moments in a rushed environment.
So maybe what I’m trying to figure out today, I don’t get. Hopefully I’ll get the answer the next day. Or maybe it will just come to me in a very still moment. The thing I love the most about life is that it will take you to some places that you may have never given consideration. The uncertainty is what should always keep you wondering “what’s next”. There is no need to worry if your going to be ready for life’s next journey. Just have faith in the Creator, faith in that new journey and faith in yourself that it will teach you lesson’s beyond your belief.
You are not drifting through the wind looking lost. You are a creation that is filled with sound and love. Wrapped with creativity for all the world to see. You are blessed beyond reason discovering a strength that you did not know you owned. Take joy in the moon and stars at night cause there is divinity in how they come together. Never doubt what your purpose is take comfort in knowing how powerful it can be. If your day did not go as planned, there is still something to smile about. It could be the beauty of the last bit of sunlight after the sun as has set or just a stranger acknowledging you with a simple a smile. This world is not ours for long but it is important to take care of it, give it the love that it deserves because in return the world will take care of you. The world ask for nothing but only to respect what it has to offer. Rejoice when you please, sing when you desire. Love like it really is your last day. Laugh even if it’s not that funny. Dance even when there is no music playing. Even stop and smell the roses if you desire. Take delight in what is delightful to you. Take a chance and experience something new. Know who you are. Remember who you are and most importantly love who you are.
This little girl from Chidester, Arkansas took a leap of faith almost 15 years ago to see what life had to offer. So the only thing I knew to do was go join the Navy and so I cussed and dranked like a Sailor!! But serious, I wanted to do other things other than the navy, but I needed a free ticket out of Arkansas. To Great Lakes, Illinois is where I went to boot camp in the middle of a freaking blizzard!!!! So I slid and fell on ice while trying to march! Oh and I was shoveling snow too! Y’all know if you went during the winter! On top of that I had dyed my hair honey blonde about 6 or 9 months before I joined the navy. While the color grew out, it also changed colors. The color was a bright orange color, and it was hot mess! My RDC or drill sergeant (for non-navy) took one look at me one morning and said: “WOW, you got some wild hair!” Being a little shy, timid and flat out awkward back then I was thinking “Yea, like totally.” After that I went to 4 commands and served on 2 ships but also was assigned temporally to 2 other ships also. The longest I’ve ever been out to sea was 120 days. Nothing.But.Ocean.
I thank God for all of the countries that I was blessed to see(“…He maketh me lie down in green pastures; he leadeth me beside the still waters.”) and the amazing people that have touched my life. My best command was in Apra Harbor, Guam (my first command). An island that is 50 times smaller than Hawaii(30 miles long to be exact) and the elements of your own neighborhood. The funny thing is that we worked like nobodies business back then and we fought, hung out, had house parties, even our very own DJ that turning the spinning and turning the records!!! Sat on front porches still in our uniforms cussing and drinking like Sailors, cooked on the weekends and still partied like it really was nobodies business. Only to go to other countries and make the best memories ever. If you know the hunch or remember the Hunch in Yokosuka, Japan-well what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas. It was a family. Some of the friends I meet back then were friends that I was searching for even when I was girl in high school. Those people are still my best friends till this day. Time went by so fast. But I would not change nothing about that time. Well maybe somethings. The military does not define me, but it is apart of my life. I dont expect everyone to like the fact that I served. But at the same token I dont expect for one to blatantly disrespect the uniform. I dont frown on anyone that makes the choices to support their own. It’s not a life for everyone cause your life is really not your life anymore once you raise your right hand. Raising your right hand, saying the oath and signing the contract is the choice that person wishes to make.
Luckily we had a period in Guam where we were in port for close to 6 months and I can honestly say that was the best time while I was in Guam. All those house parties? Yep! Unfortunately a horrific tragedy occurred on 9/11. That day did shaped the state this world is in now. After that it was not relax in Guam for a while. But no where as near as rough as it was in Virginia. One year prior to that a US ship was bombed off the coast of Yemen. When news broke of that story I remember being Sasebo, Japan at the time. Our chief was briefed us on the story the next morning. I had only been in the navy for over a year and could only wonder “this is real” We were very lucky to not even be on that side of the ocean back then. But it was not fortunate for some of those service members either. Later on in my career I had to work for someone that served on that ship. All I could say it was an experience and at times it could be hard to hear the stories over and over again almost to the point you thought you might have been on that ship, trying to save the ship and save the lives of the ones that were severely injured. I could go on but I can’t anymore.
Thinking back I had a chance to work with the British Navy briefly while I was in Virginia and somehow I charmed the socks off a British fellow. He wanted me to come out to England when time permitted and wanted to take me around the country side of England. Me being me was like “Oh yea, I would love to go!!!” Well my ship came back to Norfolk and when I stepped foot off the ship the day we got back I didn’t give that chap a thought. Yea, I know that was my fault!! That was one of many personal lost! One of my professional lost was taking a tour in Virginia when I had a chance to go to Spain for 2 years. I know what some may think. But being in Virginia really taught me more about the fleet that I dont think I would have gotten in Spain. I still had a chance to see Spain, wished I could have seen more of the country but at least I had a chance to go and it is beautiful…. So to all my Veterans today this is your day. And like we were told at the end of boot camp “Bravo Zulu on a job well done!!!” Thank you for being in my life cause God placed you for a reason. I said I wasn’t going to do this, but I’m always a big pile of love inside. I thank the ones that took the time to read this.
Crystal S. Purifoy-USN OS(SW)
Right now the world is going through one to many changes. Sad to say that millions of people across the country are counting on a check from the man. At the rate of the way things are going; it can be anyone’s call. It’s easy to just throw your hands up and say “I’m done, I’m tired of doing this everyday”. I hate to say it but there are a lot of people that would love to see everyday people crumble, starve, steal, beg for their basic necessities in life. Yet still I believe in a dream that will remain all mines. I ask you that are reading this today to also stand strong on your dreams. Encourage those in your surroundings to never give up on your dreams. That is the light that you can carry to be the best that you can be. No one knows what’s in your heart but yours truly.
This will be part of a 4 part series on ways that can be helpful on finding your light.
Mahalo for reading
For some of you that have followed by blog thank your taking the time out to read my postings and the same with this post as well. My last post was back in March and since then I have been in a complete “bloggers block”. Figuring out what direction I wanted to go was something that I was searching for. I consider myself a chameleon, I like so many different things but at the same time it’s easy for me to get bored. Even more I’m blessed enough to live on one of the most beautiful island in the world. Even here in Hawaii it’s self could be the sole topic. But this wont be a blog about Hawaii, but there could be some post about the island that could interest someone in hopes to visit this beautiful place. So stay tuned for matters of the heart that concern me, interests here in Hawaii and of course my favorite thing that is like heaven: FOOD!!!